sealed in

life of a boot camp instructor chronicled.... with some side issues and maybe a lil bit of humor here and there....

Saturday, January 22, 2005

roller coaster

such is human emotion...... to experience exhilaration and euphoria at 1 moment; e next, become to utterly depressed and in total agony.... maybe its jus me and some other emotional pple who experience e 2 extremes of these feelings more often than others.... i find myself reaching states of high doing certain things - bungee jumping, charging down dirt hills on my mountain bike.... band concerts tt rock.... and equally often i jus fall.... down and down.... states of depression tt hit rock bottom and den u dig another 30 feet down from there..... from the simplest things..... frens last minute cancelling appointments, getting scolded by superiors, recruits doin certain things.... even failing to find things to do on weekends will propel me into these depths.... i dunno if its normal to be lyk goin thru lyk a few highs and lows every single day..... i find it very draining to switch between emotional extremes so many times.... jus so..... wierd..... in light of this..... guess e onli thing tt brings my emotional levels.. or issit hormone levels to stable levels is to go exercise.... hitting e weights room or goin for run...... not jus strengthens... also calms e mind..... maybe its cos i havent been exercising due to training im in emotional turmoil...... maybe....

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